So yeah...

So yeah...
I haven't been around in a while. Most people who read this probably already know why.
My fiance's mom passed away last week....Or was it this week? My days have all been running together. Yeah I think it was this week. It just seems like ages ago that we were back in CA.
It was a sad occasion of course. We will all miss The Mama. But at the same time we are all relieved that she is now in a better place and done with the pain and suffering that she had to endure while in this realm.
It was hard for me because first off I did/do love The Mama very much she was there for me when my mom wasn't able to be due to the miles between us. But also because my dad passed away just a couple of months ago and it was a very sudden thing for everyone in my family. My dad got sick about 10 days before he passed away and about 4 days before he passed away they found that it was cancer and sent him home to die. So watching what The Mama had to go through I kept seeing my dad and wondering if the same thing happened to him.
I cried for both as The Mama passed away. And I cried for my fiance and his siblings.
The past year has been full of things to overcome. And the year ahead of us only seems to have more chalanges. Now don't get me wrong. Some of them are very good. Buying a house and getting married are both things I'm looking forward to but I'm smart enough to know that neither task will be easy. It's been a full couple of years and I can't say that hasn't been a fun ride. I know that may sound strange considering so many deaths and no those weren't fun. It's hard to lose a parent, even one you aren't that close to. But the trip of moving was fun. The closness I've found between me and my friends was fun. So while there are the downs there are also the ups and those are a great time.
So yeah...