update

For my sister:
I'm updating. I'm pregnant, I'm going to be living with my boyfriend as soon as his school year ends in about 2.5ish weeks. I'm going to be the maid of honor in one of my best friends wedding who is FINALLY marrying the person I've been trying to hook her up with since my freshman year in college. (You're welcome!) I'm due in August and can't believe I'm going to be a mother.
I still work at T-Mobile. I have lots of good friends and family.
My mom moved up to my town to be near her soon to be grand baby. No we aren't finding out if it's going to be a boy or girl. It's a baby 100%.

Happy now? :D

Half a year later...anyone still read this?

So yes this year is a much slower posting year than last. So much has happened since my last post. I'm getting a divorce that's the biggie. Am I happy about it? No who's ever happy about their marriage failing. Am I relieved? Yeah kinda to be honest. I still love Gehnen I always will. It wasn't a lack of love that ended the marriage. We both still love each other and maybe that makes it harder because we do. We just...we just aren't fit to be married to each other any more. We didn't see eye to eye on some key things in our lives anymore. Maybe it stemmed from being together since we were 19. Nearly 10 years later and we just aren't the same people anymore. I don't think either of us are bad people just not who we used to be, not who we each fell in love with all those years ago. I still have every hope and faith that we will be able to remain friends for the rest of our lives but I think it will take some time before we can really enjoy the friendship of each other. Right now we are both going through a lot of hurt. Some things still hit each other a bit harder because of the love we have for each other.

So we are moving on. Things start to really change in the middle of June that's when he moves out of the house. I'll be in the house till about November. There's a chance some other things will change that will have me moving out before then but that's not 100% known just yet. But regardless I'm looking forward to some change. Though I don't like moving I do like change I like a fresh start a time to start over.

I'm actually dating again. Am talking to a couple of nice guys, yet again met online. It's different to date. I've not really expierenced it before. When Gehnen and I met it was states away. And we didn't date, we talked we enjoyed time with each other via the comp or the phone but nothing face to face really till I moved to Cali. Now I'm actually going on dates while I get to know these guys. It's a unusual and fun expierence. I'm enjoying getting to know each other face to face.

That's my update for now enjoy

A new year...again

It's a new year again, so what's that mean now? I don't know. I haven't figured it out yet. A hope of something better that's for sure but there is always that. A sense of longing for the past year and the disappointment that it wasn't as good as you had hoped. There's usually that too unfortunately.

So where am I know? Still in Missouri about to finish year 4 and start year 5 in March. Working at T-mobile still and praying that I've been doing well enough to get a good shift in Feb when they fuck us all around again and not go back to seeing my husband only on Sat & Sun. Happily getting to know my Bulldog better. Hoping it continues to work well. Hoping all my friendships grow stronger and not weaker.

Strangely I feel a small sense of longing for what I know is unhealthy for me but I miss what it was even if it wasn't real. Even if I had been lied to for years to make it something that I wanted at all. Perhaps the saying "ignorance is bliss" is true. I was happy at the time though I now know that it was largely fake. Would I want to go back to that? Sometimes. Put me back in the Matrix...nah. I think I like honesty too much. I'd rather know the truth that continue to be friends with someone who secretly can't stand me. Not fun, makes you question other things when you learn the truth about that though, at least for a time.

I'm looking forward to this year. Hoping that this one succeeds where past years have failed. Perhaps, and likely, it's myself that's failed in the past so perhaps this will be the year that I can succeed at what I want. Have my dreams come true...figure out exactly what my dreams are. Isn't that sometimes the hardest part? Deciding what you actually want out of life so you know what to go get? Does it ever just click? When it's the right decision does it make itself for you or is there always that time of self doubt. That part where you go, is this right or wrong? Am I going to be happy in the long run or am I just royally fucking myself over by taking the left path instead of the right? That, for me, is the worst part deciding which way to go when you get to a fork in the road. Left or right, I wish I had some binoculars so I could see down the path of each a bit, find out which one has more happy spots. It's not that I want to know it all I don't. I'm just scared shitless I'll bake the wrong decision and be unhappy in the long run for it.
Surely someone out there knows what I mean? I'm sure we've all been there before. Well it's a new year and a new chance for the right choices at a new path. I wish us all the best of luck.

Happy New Year.

An update on me

I got a shift change!!!!!!!! Oh I'm so excited I get to see my husband (Gehnen) seven days a week now. It's amazing. Well it will be, I just started yesterday but still I'm oh so excited. I work M-F still which is great and I work 9:30-6:30 with an hour lunch. So I'm home around seven instead of 10:30 which I'm so so so excited about. It means no more having to cram everything I want to do into just 2 days.

My birthday was last week. I had a blast. Came home early from work and spent time with my family. Just chilled out watching TV and playing video games. Gehnen got me the next in the Tales of Symphonia series this one for the Wii, now I really need to hunker down and finish up the one I have. I think I'm pretty close but not really sure. Either way I need to finish it up so I can start the next one. Then on Saturday I went and had sushi with a bunch of friends for my birthday dinner which was great. Always love to be surrounded by friends for my b-day. And what better dinner than sushi! So yummy, I ended up having sushi three times in eight days I mean really you can't get much better than that. Ok you can but it'd be hard. :D

Also I've started seeing a guy I met on line. He's a real sweetheart. Been talking to him for about four weeks now. Bulldog is his tag for this blog here. He's got a dark streak but it's in a way I love not evil at all so no worries there. He's a very good friend and even if nothing else comes of it I'm happy to have him in my life. The worst part is just that he lives about an hour away so it's hard to see him on the spur of the moment and either of us going to see the other results in a longish trip and time away from our families just because you have 2 hours taken in travel time alone, well maybe an hour and a half for him I think he must drive like a bat out of hell on the highway.

The holidays are coming up. We're hosting Thanksgiving at our house again. Alyssa and Benny will be over as will Lushious most likely. So we should have a nice time. I unfortuantly do have to work the next day we were possibly going to be closed and now we for sure are going to be open. And yet I'm still going to kill myself and wake up at bitch o'clock in the morning and go shopping with Neri to get the good deals.

My mom is coming up here for Christmas which is very exciting. We've not been able to celebrate Christmas together since I moved to Cali and this will be the first holiday she's celebrated with Gehnen at all. On top of that I will have seen her for a total of 3 times in one year which is a record since I moved out of Texas. Whee!!

ebay

For those wondering...we won the thing I was obsessively clicking refresh for.

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My head hurts.

I had a good weekend though. I had Friday off from work cause my hubby was in a wedding on Sat and needed to be places on Fri. So I took the day off since under normal circumstances I would have been at work till 10 and he needed to be places by like 2:30ish. So I had a short work week. Got to see some friends with my extra time.

I went out to breakfast on Friday with a new friend hense forth named Wayne (for some fucked up reason, he picked it don't blame me) and that was fun. Getting to talk to him and get to know him better. My Demon showed up at the end of breakfast with Wayne and got to meet him. They got along rather nicely so that was a bonus.

After leaving my new friend, my Demon and I went to have lunch together. We had Indian food that was oh so yummy. Talked about everything we'd been missing on since we hardly get to see each other with my new sched being what it is. Talked about the possible new guy in my life which is exciting. The newness and such. Still not sure exactly what's going to happen on that front we shall see. But I'm hopeful.

Sat was a full day of wedding stuff. I did get to relax in the morning which I can't even say for Gehnen since he was a groomsman and busy all damn day with wedding shit. He had to be at the Grooms house by 9:45 and we didn't get home till oh...7:30 that evening. But it was a beautiful wedding. The bride was stunning the dress fit her perfectly and the groom was handsome even as nervous as he was. I ended up at a table where I was the only one who had never worked at the place they all have. But it wasn't as uncomfortable as I thought it would be. I hadn't seen some of them in a while and hadn't met some of them at all but over all it was enjoyable and once my husband showed up I was a happy camper.

Today I went out with Alyssa to lunch and then a bit of window shopping. I was looking for a new purse because I'm really wanting one but I haven't been able to find one I really like. I still haven't found one worth spending money on sadly :( But I did enjoy my time with Alyssa.

My headache is finally going away...

Before lunch with Alyssa I went shopping for Halloween costume stuff with Neri and Gehnen. I got the bulk of my costume but the time consuming part is going to be the hair/headpiece. I'm gonna be Medusa and I need to get the snakes worked into a wig so I can have that. I think it'll be great. I'm looking forward to Halloween this year. We are either going to a party or going to the Pub Crawl downtown. One way or another we'll be surrounded by drunkerds in great costumes so it should be a blast.

Ok that's all for now I need to go obsessivly click refresh on an ebay bid for Gehnen.

I really hate stupid people

So two days ago I talked to what has to be the dumbest person I'd ever talked to. I was at work. And on the whole at work I usually talk to pretty bright people or at least people who can communicate and live with the majority of society and not piss half of us off. This guy on the other hand....dear goddess help me please when dealing with people like this guy.

At the end of the 30 minute conversation I was praying that he was just fucking with me and not really that stupid. No really I was. I was half tempted to tell him to cut out the bullshit and stop acting like a moron because I really really hoped that he was just a VERY good actor and pulling my leg just to get his jollies.

The reason he called in? He needed to know how to send a text message, ok fine. I know not everyone deals well with technology (though my mom figured it out with out calling HER cell phone provider OR me). So that part of the call was ok. I easily walked him through the steps and he seemed to get it.

Then he mentioned how he liked that the "keys [were] hid" on his phone. Yes congrats you have a slider phone they are great I love mine too. Then he wanted to know about OTHER Samsung phones.... ok you JUST bought this one and you haven't even really used it yet (I know because he set it up and called into us) but you want to know about other phones...fine. I give him the run down on other samsung phones. He asks which one I like best, well I don't really like telling someone which phone they should pick because if they don't like it they call back in and bitch because the person who told them about the phone didn't tell them about X (insert grip here).

So I tell him maybe he should go to the store, there he can see what kind of phones they have available and see which one he likes the most. He finally sees that this is a great idea, bad news...no my company corp owned stores in his area. But wait there is a Target... I tell him let me give you the number so you can call and make sure they have the phones you want to look at (he had narrowed it down to a couple based on my descriptions)

This is the part where I decided I'd rather take a spoon and dig my eye out than stay at work and talk to him. I give him the number to Target 856-623-2068...So it's 856-23-0286....no, no it's not. I repeat it 8.5.6....6.2.3....2.0.6.8, Ok I got 856-23- is the zero before or after the two......it's after....ok so 0268?.....*me starting to look like an insane person because my eyes are growing wide* No it's 2....0....6....8. Ok so is the zero before or after the two?....ARE YOU FUCKING WITH ME?!?!?! I'm not kidding I read the number off PAINFULLY slow. I gave him PLENTY of time between each number to write it down directly as I was speaking it.

Now before anyone posts nasty bitchy things to me. Yes I know that perhaps he was dyslexic I did think of that. However he claimed the acct was in his name and you have to be 18 to have an acct in your own name so there for by this time in his life you would HOPE he has at least had some kind of teaching that allows him some tricks as to how to live and cope with dyslexia if that is indeed his problem and not just years of inbreeding. I'm not kidding you I read that number well over 20 times to him. I said each number again with so much time in between so that he could just start fresh and write down the number as I said it and not have to worry about which was in front of what.

And after all that...after saying them so slow an arthritic grandmother who has alzheimers would memorize the number. He didn't get it right. I lied to him. I'm sorry it was awful of me but he just.didn't.get.it. He didn't there was nothing I was going to say that would help him figure out what the fuck the number was. He was simply an inbreed idiot from Alabama

What to do with the economic bailout

I'm not sure who wrote this I wish I was because I would love to credit them with it but I think it's absofukinglutly amazing I'll support this 100%!

I like the thinking of this... Why, I wonder would this NEVER go??? Big brother/Politicians?!?


I'm against the $85,000,000,000.00 bailout of AIG.

Instead, I'm in favor of giving $85,000,000,000 to America in
a 'We Deserve It Dividend'.

To make the math simple, let's assume there are 200,000,000
bona fide U.S. Citizens 18+.

Our population is about 301,000,000 +/- counting every man, woman
and child. So 200,000,000 might be a fair stab at adults 18 and up..

So divide 200 million adults 18+ into $85 Billion that equals $425,000.00.

My plan is to give $425,000 to every person 18+ as a
'We Deserve It Dividend'.

Of course, it would NOT be tax free.
So let's assume a tax rate of 30%.

Every individual 18+ has to pay $127,500.00 in taxes.
That sends $25,500,000,000 right back to Uncle Sam.

But it means that every adult 18+ has $297,500.00 in their pocket.
A husband and wife has $595,000.00.

What would you do with $297,500.00 to $595,000.00 in your family?
Pay off your mortgage - housing crisis solved.
Repay college loans - what a great boost to new grads entering the work force.
Put away money for college - it'll be there to assist education.
Save in a bank - create money to loan to entrepreneurs.
Buy a new car, buy anything - create jobs.
Invest in the market - capital drives growth
Pay for you or your parent's medical insurance - health care improves.
Enable Deadbeat Dads to come clean - or else.

Remember this is for every adult U S Citizen 18+ including the folks
who lost their jobs at Lehman Brothers and every other company
that is cutting back. And definitely, for those bravely serving in our Armed Forces.

So, if we're going to re-distribute wealth let's really do it...instead of trickling out
a puny $1000.00 ( 'buy your vote' ) economic incentive that is being proposed by one
of our candidates for President.

If we're going to do an $85 billion bailout, let's bail out every adult U S
Citizen 18+!

As for AIG - liquidate it.
Sell off its parts.
Let American General go back to being American General.
Sell off the real estate.
Let the private sector bargain hunters cut it up and clean it up.

Here's my rationale. We deserve it and AIG doesn't.

Sure it's a crazy idea that can 'never work.'

But can you imagine the Coast-To-Coast Block Party!

How do you spell Economic Boom?

I trust my fellow adult Americans to know how to use the '$85 Billion
We Deserve It Dividend' more than I do the geniuses at AIG or our politicians in Washington DC .

And remember, This plan really only costs $59.5 Billion because $25.5
Billion is returned instantly in taxes to Uncle Sam.


Ahhh...I feel So much better getting that off my chest.

PS: Feel free to pass this along to your pals as it's either good for a laugh,
a tear, or a very sobering thought on how to best use $85 Billion!!

sorry

Ok so I know I've been totally slack in writing anything on here but for the longest time I just didn't feel the draw to write. I've been in hiding in a way online. But here I is whether you like it or not.
So since I've last written I've started a new job and been there for 5.5 weeks now. I'm working customer service at an amazing company. One that gives amazing benefits for it's employees. I'm really actually enjoying myself and I've already made some new friends.
Not to terribly much going on in my life right now. I did get down to Texas saw some friends and family that I haven't seen in a while. I'm already itching to go back I miss them tons. One of my best friends is dating another of my really good friends and I'm happy for them. I hope it works out great.
I've met a few amazing women at my new job and have been enjoying going out with them usually once a week at least to hang out and relax. It's been nice.
My schedule does suck in that most of my other friends are on different schedules than me so I haven't seen them as much. And once my sched changes past training it's gonna get worse cause I'll be a mid shift and won't get off till 10 pm during the week so I'll pretty much not see my husband at all except on the weekends. But hopefully that only lasts till Feb when I can change my sched again.
I've been doing something secretly that I'm not gonna expand on here yet but I'm excited about and hopefully it will become known to others soon enough.
Ok I'm really tired now so I think I'm gonna go to bed.

Stolen from an e-mail

C O W S

Is it just me, or does anyone else find it amazing that during the mad cow epidemic our government could track a single cow, born in Canada almost three years ago, right to the stall where she slept in the state of Washington? And, they tracked her calves to their stalls. But they are unable to locate 11 million illegal aliens wandering around our country. Maybe we should give each of them a cow.



T H E C O N S T I T U T I O N

They keep talking about drafting a Constitution for Iraq .... Why don't we just give them ours? It was written by a lot of really smart guys, it has worked for over 200 years, and we're not using it anymore.



T H E 1 0 C O M M A N D M E N T S

The real reason that we can't have the Ten Commandments posted in a courthouse is this:
You cannot post 'Thou Shalt Not Steal,' 'Thou Shalt Not Commit Adultery,' and 'Thou Shall Not Lie' in a building full of lawyers, judges and politicians....It creates a hostile work environment.

Blog Tour Part IX

So I've been kinda slack in writing anything new here. For those of you who take the time to click on my little blog and look you haven't had anything new to read since the beginning of the month. Now I do realize that the month is only half over so you've gone approximately 9 day without anything new from me. So for you patient people...here is something new. You're welcome.

What are you planning on doing this summer/what are you most looking forward to doing?

That is the latest blog tour topic. And here is my response. I WANNA NEW JOB! :) And the good news is I may have one I really really like shortly however it won't start until July 15th. The better news (if I get the job) is that I have a temp job for the next 2 weeks which will keep me busy till right before I go to Texas to visit some friends and family I haven't seen in 2 years. And then when I get back on the 8th I'll have about a week of free time to unpack clean and put away my clothes before I start my new job. And knowing me it could very well take the full week to unpack, clean, and put away my clothes. :D

So what I am looking forward to most is a new job however I am also ecstatic about said trip to Texas. I get to go down on Thurs see my 4 nieces, 5 my great nephews and great nieces. My two sisters, possibly two brothers in law (depending on if one is one the road or not and what the others work sched is), and a partridge in a pear tree. Ok it's TX so probably no partridges but I could see pear trees if anyone has decided to plant them. I also get to see my mom and one of my closest childhood friends on Thursday night. Not to mention one of my bestest friends TC who has been so kind to offer to drive me around hither and thither while I'm down there as Alyssa (my SIL) is driving me as far as my sisters house before going to see her brother, SIL, niece, and newest family addition her nephew. Who at the time of publishing this has yet to be born. Then I get to see some friends from church and highschool on Friday stay with a friend Friday night. Do some of this and that on Saturday. Eat at all those places that they don't have where I live now. (come on, I'm a fatty of course my vacation is gonna include food.)
Generally it should be a great trip and I'm really really really looking forward to it.

bummer realizations

So I quit my job a couple of weeks ago. Looking for another one, had an interview didn't get it. But that's not what this post is about.
What it is about is that I am pretty sure I'll never see Fredrick again. Which is sad. I knew even at the time that I likely was hoping for more than would ever actually happen but what your brain says logically and your heart hopes for are quite often two different things.

I thought I would write more but this is all I want to write.

Blog Tour VIII Favorite Scent

Last weeks topic was our favorite scent and I didn't post, I didn't think I was going to post at all. I don't really have a favorite scent. I enjoy smelling things sure I enjoy flowers and fresh cut grass. I like the smell of yummy bread being baked. Or when Neri cooks something extra yummy in the oven. But I couldn't really think of a favorite scent. I was reading another one of the blog tour posts and was reminded of something that always makes me nostalgic and usually happy.
The smell of lumber. It reminds me of my father, specifically being with him on a job site when I was younger. He worked in construction. He had his own business he worked for others, he was the guy nailing all the 2x4s together, he was the job foremen. He did it all from the lowest of the low to the top. Now my dad didn't always live with my mom and I and they ended up splitting around the time I was in 3rd or 4th grade (I don't remember exactly.) I didn't always have good times with him or want to be with him or even liked him. But I always enjoyed being on a job with him. From the time I could walk pretty much I had been on job sites with him. I'd carry a hammer (both hands cause it was heavy) I'd hand him nails. I even got to sit on a stack of plywood that was on a forklift and be lifted up to the second floor once. I love it.
And so to this day if I'm near lumber fresh cut or open edges (so the scent isn't sealed in) I smell it and I think of my dad and I either cry because he's gone or I'm happy because I remember the times I enjoyed being with him as a child.
And that my friends is my favorite scent.

What I've done. (some of it anyway)

How Many Things Have You Lived Through?

I have read a lot of books.

I have been on some sort of varsity team.

I have run more than 2 miles without stopping.

I have been to Canada.

I have been to Europe.

I have watched cartoons for hours.

I have tripped UP the stairs.

I have fallen down an entire flight of stairs.

I have been snowboarding/skiing.

I have played ping pong.

I swam in the ocean.

I have been on a whale watch.

I have seen fireworks.

I have seen a shooting star.

I have seen a meteor shower.

I have almost drowned.

I have been so embarrassed I wanted to disappear.

I have listened to one CD over & over & over again.

I have had stitches.

I have had frostbite.

I have licked a frozen pole and got stuck there.

I have stayed up til 2 doing homework/projects.

I currently have a job.

I have been ice skating.

I have been rollerblading

I have fallen flat on my face.

I have tripped over my own two feet.

I have been in a fist fight.

I have played videogames for more than 3 hours straight.

I have watched the power rangers.

I attend Church regularly.

I have played truth or dare.

I have already had my 16th birthday.

I have already had my 17th birthday.

I've called someone stupid.

I've been in a verbal argument.

I've cried in school.

I've played basketball on a team.

I've played baseball on a team.

I've played football on a team.

I've played soccer on a team.

I've done cheerleading on a team.

I've played softball on a team.

I've played volleyball on a team.

I've played tennis on a team.

I've been on a track or cross country team.

I've been swimming more than 20 times in my life.

I've bungee jumped.

I've climbed a rock wall.

I've lost more than $20.

I've called myself an idiot.

I've called someone else an idiot.

I've cried myself to sleep.

I've had (or have) pets.

I've owned a spice girls CD.

I've owned a britney spears CD.

I've owned an N*Sync CD.

I've owned a backstreet boys CD.

I've mooned someone.

I have sworn at someone of authority before.

I've been in the newspaper.

I've been on TV.

I've been to Hawaii.

I've eaten sushi.

I've been on the other side of a waterfall.

I've watched all of the Lord of the Rings movies.

I've watched all the Harry Potter movies.

I've watched all of the Rocky movies.

I've watched the 3 stooges.

I've watched "Newlyweds" Nick & Jessica.

I've watched Looney Tunes.

I've been stuffed into a locker/I have stuffed others into lockers.

I've been called a geek.

I've studied hard for a test and got a bad grade.

I've not studied at all for a test and aced it.

I've hugged my mom within the past 24 hrs.

I've hugged my dad within the past 24 hours.

I've met a celebrity/music artist.

I've written poetry.

I've been arrested.

I've been attracted to someone much older than me.

I've been tickled till I've cried.

I've tickled someone else until they cried.

I've had/have siblings.

I've been to a rock concert.

I've listened to classical music and enjoyed it.

I've been in a play.

I've been picked last in gym class.

I've been picked first in gym class.

I've been picked in that middle-range in gym class.

I've cried in front of my friends.

I've read a book longer than 1,000 pages.

I've played Halo 2.

I've freaked out over a sports game.

I've been to Alaska.

I've been to China.

I've been to Spain.

I've been to Japan.

I've had a fight with someone on AIM.

I've had a fight with someone face-to-face.

I've had serious conversations using IM.

I've forgiven someone who has done something wrong to me.

I've been forgiven.

I've screamed at a scary movie.

I've cried at a chick flick.

I've watched a lot of action movies.

I've screamed at the top of my lungs.

I've been to a rap concert.

I've been to a hip hop concert.

I've lived in more than 2 houses.

I've driven on the highway/been on the highway.

I've driven more than 400 miles in a day/been in a car that went more than 400 miles in a day.

I've been in a car accident.

I've done drugs.

I've been homesick.

I've thrown up.

I've puked on someone.

I've been horseback riding.

I've filled out more than 10 myspace surveys.

I've spoken my mind in public.

I've proved someone wrong.

I've been proven wrong by someone.

I've broken a leg.

I've broken an arm.

I've fallen off a swing.

I've swung on a swing for more than 30 mins straight.

I've watched Winnie the Pooh movies.

I've forgotten my backpack when I've gone to school.

I've lost my backpack.

I've come close to dying.

I've seen someone die.

I've known someone who has died.

I've wanted to be an actor/actress at some point.

I've done modeling.

I've forgotten to brush my teeth some mornings.

I've taken something/someone for granted.

I've realized how good my life is.

I've counted my blessings.

I've made fun of a classmate.

I've been asked out by someone and I said no.

I've slapped someone in the face.

I've been skateboarding.

I've been backstabbed by someone I thought was a friend.

I've lied to someone to their face.

I've told a little white lie.

I've taken a day off from school just so I don't go insane.

I've fainted.

I've had an argument with someone about whether cheerleading is a sport or not.

I've pushed someone into a pool.

I've been pushed into a pool.

I've been/are in love.

Amatokin

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Why do we care?

Why do we care what others think of us? What is the purpose of it? It serves to make us feel bad or insecure or worried. Others judge us and it can do damage to our self esteem. If you are happy with you then be happy. Don't worry about what others think. Don't spend your life hiding who you really are because someone somewhere may not approve.

I'm not sure exactly who said this and I'm not exactly sure if it was worded this way. But the general idea I like.

The people that are worth it won't care and those that care aren't worth it.

The people in your life that choose to dislike you over something that is inherently you just aren't worth it. The people who choose to judge you and make assumptions of you because of rumors and hearsay aren't worth it. The people who are worth it are those that know you to the core and love and accept you for exactly who you are and actually KNOW who you are instead of thinking they know anything about you.

I have a lifestyle that not all understand or approve of. Some think that because I live this way I will attempt to steal someone away from their SO. It's just not the case no matter how much I care for someone I would never attempt to steal them. If they came willingly well that's another story. :D My dad cheated on my mom for a great many years and saw nothing wrong with it. He put my mom's health at risk and it's just not something I have the desire to do. I don't want to be the "other woman" to any man.

But regardless of what I say or how I say it some people will always assume that because of my lifestyle I'm a man stealer or want to be and you know what I just don't give a flying monkeys ass what they think. I did. But it's something I've had to start dealing with within myself. Why do I care what good is it for me to worry about what someone else thinks of me. They certainly aren't my friends so what does it matter? And in the end I realized it doesn't. So to those that think poorly of me and don't know me well kiss it because I am just not going to let it bother me anymore.

Thanks and have a great day!

My weekend

So I posted about no good deed and such. I'm feeling much better now. I still have an occasional back pain and will likely go to the chiro once I get a claim number from the insurance. I am supposed to go and get 2 quotes for my car repair. I was hoping it'd be like my accident where they gave me a list of places I could go and I wouldn't have to worry about the quote or anything like that but I guess it's not to be this time.

Saturday was Gehnen's b-day party. His b-day is actually Tomorrow (Tue) but we wanted to celebrate on the weekend to give us more time. We went to the park and BBQed some burgers and hotdogs. We also did some nerfing but not nearly as much as dear hubby would have liked. But I wasn't up to top form and my back was hurting me some at the time. We got there about 11 and are glad we did get there so early because the park and all the BBQ pits got full quite fast after we arrived. We ended up leaving just before 3 and enjoyed the day a great deal. Was absolutely perfect park weather.

Saturday night Alyssa and I went to a party for my co-workers b-day. Saturday was his actual birthday. Alyssa and I both ended up getting drunk. Neither of us had really had anything to drink since our SIL was out visiting in February and I think we've both become something of a light weight. And it wasn't any help that the very first drink we both had was a screw driver that was about half vodka and half OJ. The b-day boy was very generous. I also ended up fooling around a bit with one of the party guests. Good kisser that one. Alyssa had to assure another party guest that no my hubby would not be upset with me kissing another man which was actually nice to know that people out there are still concerned with fidelity.

Alyssa is quite a funny drunk. She was quite adamant about no one driving while drunk (which is a very good thing to be adamant about) but then she quite willingly got into the car of another guest (who was indeed drunk) so they could go to taco bell and obtain some food. Also after we left and I drove the 30 mins from where the party was to Alyssa's house she decided at that point that I was too drunk to drive and stole my keys from the ignition. My BIL Benny had to convince her that I was just fine to drive and that no Gehnen in fact would not be mad at her for letting me driving the rest of the way home.

Unfortunately the next day Alyssa had quite the hangover and has sworn off drinking...until we go to Vegas where she won't have much choice. ;)

Dream Job Blog Tour VII

So I completely miss a week and then I do that one and the current one back to back.

What is your dream job, and if you don't/didn't have it, how did that happen?

To be honest I had 3 dream jobs between first grade and my first year of college.

I knew without a shadow of a doubt that I wanted to be a teacher when I was in first grade. That is what I wanted to do. I'd have little craft kits and I'd set up my class room just so. I knew all this in 1st grade. I loved my teacher, she even went to my church so I ended up knowing her my entire school career (after a year of college I moved away and don't see her anymore). Said year in college was actually starting on my education degree. However shortly after taking some classes I realized it just wasn't for me and that I was out of my mind to think I'd make a good teacher. One of my best friends TC is a great teacher but she and I have near polar opposite personalities and mine just isn't the right one for teaching.

In 3rd grade I fell in love with marine biology. I loved (and do to this day) marine life. It amazes me. In fact I did a report on I think about 20 different marine animals completely voluntary. My teacher ended up grading it and even averaged that into my grade for the period I think. I was fascinated by it all. But the nitty gritty details I just didn't have the mind for.

My final dream job was to be a fashion designer. Oh goddess I love designing clothes however I do not have the skills needed for fashion design you know that little small skill known as drawing. It escapes my grasp. That and fashion is so hard to break into.

So what "dream job" do I want at this point in my life? I'd like to be an office manager some day. I think it'd be a good fit for me. I'm fair with co-workers and I'm good and keeping people flowing and on target I think without being an utter bitch about it all.

Bucket List Blog Tour part VI

Well the topic due last Sat was my very own topic and yet I didn't post it in time. Shame on me I guess. I posted a couple of times this just wasn't what I was in the mood to post on sorry guys.

So what do I want to do before my time on this round place ends?

I want to visit every US state.
I want to go overseas at least once: London, Paris, Australia, Italy, almost anywhere. :)
I want to lose weight and be a size 12
I want to make enough money to not worry about my monthly bills
I want to be able to go into a bookstore and buy 10 books without thinking about how this will hit my bank account.
I want to go on a vacation with my husband
I want to have kids
I want to go rock climbing on real rocks and not just indoors.
I want to meet Johnny Depp (so that might not happen but it'd sure be nice.)
I want to spend a day at the spa getting pampered
I want to finish the cross stitch I've been working on for 2 years so far. *smiles sheepishly*
I want to go back to Mt Shasta and spend a week or two camping there and climb up as far as I can on Mt. Shasta.

I'm sure there are plenty more but that's it for this list.

Real Live vs. Politics

No good deed goes unpunished

So I was going to pickup lunch for my boss because I have the freedom to leave before the lunch rush starts around here and he only has a 30 min lunch break. On the way to grab it I saw Fredrick walking home. He had been sent home because he was sick. So I offered to give him a ride home which he took me up on.

After I dropped him off I was on my way back to the office when the car in front of me slowed down because the car in front of him was turning. The truck behind me was going too fast or just didn't notice I had slowed down. Either way I glance up into my rear view mirror and see the look of terror on his face as he realizes he's going to hit me. And he hits me hard.

Bent my bumper and my license plate. And my truck is probably about a quarter of an inch higher than it should be. I was feeling fine at first and then started to get a headache while waiting for the police. They had to be called because he was in a company pickup truck and they have to have a police report filed.

So that took an hour or so for the cop to show up and do all his paperwork. So the accident happened around 11:30 and now 2ish hours later my back is really starting to hurt. My headache hasn't gone away despite the fact that I took 2 Excedrin as soon as I got back into the office. So as soon as I leave work it's off to Urgent care I go.

And so you see...no good deed goes unpunished.