An update on me

I got a shift change!!!!!!!! Oh I'm so excited I get to see my husband (Gehnen) seven days a week now. It's amazing. Well it will be, I just started yesterday but still I'm oh so excited. I work M-F still which is great and I work 9:30-6:30 with an hour lunch. So I'm home around seven instead of 10:30 which I'm so so so excited about. It means no more having to cram everything I want to do into just 2 days.

My birthday was last week. I had a blast. Came home early from work and spent time with my family. Just chilled out watching TV and playing video games. Gehnen got me the next in the Tales of Symphonia series this one for the Wii, now I really need to hunker down and finish up the one I have. I think I'm pretty close but not really sure. Either way I need to finish it up so I can start the next one. Then on Saturday I went and had sushi with a bunch of friends for my birthday dinner which was great. Always love to be surrounded by friends for my b-day. And what better dinner than sushi! So yummy, I ended up having sushi three times in eight days I mean really you can't get much better than that. Ok you can but it'd be hard. :D

Also I've started seeing a guy I met on line. He's a real sweetheart. Been talking to him for about four weeks now. Bulldog is his tag for this blog here. He's got a dark streak but it's in a way I love not evil at all so no worries there. He's a very good friend and even if nothing else comes of it I'm happy to have him in my life. The worst part is just that he lives about an hour away so it's hard to see him on the spur of the moment and either of us going to see the other results in a longish trip and time away from our families just because you have 2 hours taken in travel time alone, well maybe an hour and a half for him I think he must drive like a bat out of hell on the highway.

The holidays are coming up. We're hosting Thanksgiving at our house again. Alyssa and Benny will be over as will Lushious most likely. So we should have a nice time. I unfortuantly do have to work the next day we were possibly going to be closed and now we for sure are going to be open. And yet I'm still going to kill myself and wake up at bitch o'clock in the morning and go shopping with Neri to get the good deals.

My mom is coming up here for Christmas which is very exciting. We've not been able to celebrate Christmas together since I moved to Cali and this will be the first holiday she's celebrated with Gehnen at all. On top of that I will have seen her for a total of 3 times in one year which is a record since I moved out of Texas. Whee!!

ebay

For those wondering...we won the thing I was obsessively clicking refresh for.

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My head hurts.

I had a good weekend though. I had Friday off from work cause my hubby was in a wedding on Sat and needed to be places on Fri. So I took the day off since under normal circumstances I would have been at work till 10 and he needed to be places by like 2:30ish. So I had a short work week. Got to see some friends with my extra time.

I went out to breakfast on Friday with a new friend hense forth named Wayne (for some fucked up reason, he picked it don't blame me) and that was fun. Getting to talk to him and get to know him better. My Demon showed up at the end of breakfast with Wayne and got to meet him. They got along rather nicely so that was a bonus.

After leaving my new friend, my Demon and I went to have lunch together. We had Indian food that was oh so yummy. Talked about everything we'd been missing on since we hardly get to see each other with my new sched being what it is. Talked about the possible new guy in my life which is exciting. The newness and such. Still not sure exactly what's going to happen on that front we shall see. But I'm hopeful.

Sat was a full day of wedding stuff. I did get to relax in the morning which I can't even say for Gehnen since he was a groomsman and busy all damn day with wedding shit. He had to be at the Grooms house by 9:45 and we didn't get home till oh...7:30 that evening. But it was a beautiful wedding. The bride was stunning the dress fit her perfectly and the groom was handsome even as nervous as he was. I ended up at a table where I was the only one who had never worked at the place they all have. But it wasn't as uncomfortable as I thought it would be. I hadn't seen some of them in a while and hadn't met some of them at all but over all it was enjoyable and once my husband showed up I was a happy camper.

Today I went out with Alyssa to lunch and then a bit of window shopping. I was looking for a new purse because I'm really wanting one but I haven't been able to find one I really like. I still haven't found one worth spending money on sadly :( But I did enjoy my time with Alyssa.

My headache is finally going away...

Before lunch with Alyssa I went shopping for Halloween costume stuff with Neri and Gehnen. I got the bulk of my costume but the time consuming part is going to be the hair/headpiece. I'm gonna be Medusa and I need to get the snakes worked into a wig so I can have that. I think it'll be great. I'm looking forward to Halloween this year. We are either going to a party or going to the Pub Crawl downtown. One way or another we'll be surrounded by drunkerds in great costumes so it should be a blast.

Ok that's all for now I need to go obsessivly click refresh on an ebay bid for Gehnen.

I really hate stupid people

So two days ago I talked to what has to be the dumbest person I'd ever talked to. I was at work. And on the whole at work I usually talk to pretty bright people or at least people who can communicate and live with the majority of society and not piss half of us off. This guy on the other hand....dear goddess help me please when dealing with people like this guy.

At the end of the 30 minute conversation I was praying that he was just fucking with me and not really that stupid. No really I was. I was half tempted to tell him to cut out the bullshit and stop acting like a moron because I really really hoped that he was just a VERY good actor and pulling my leg just to get his jollies.

The reason he called in? He needed to know how to send a text message, ok fine. I know not everyone deals well with technology (though my mom figured it out with out calling HER cell phone provider OR me). So that part of the call was ok. I easily walked him through the steps and he seemed to get it.

Then he mentioned how he liked that the "keys [were] hid" on his phone. Yes congrats you have a slider phone they are great I love mine too. Then he wanted to know about OTHER Samsung phones.... ok you JUST bought this one and you haven't even really used it yet (I know because he set it up and called into us) but you want to know about other phones...fine. I give him the run down on other samsung phones. He asks which one I like best, well I don't really like telling someone which phone they should pick because if they don't like it they call back in and bitch because the person who told them about the phone didn't tell them about X (insert grip here).

So I tell him maybe he should go to the store, there he can see what kind of phones they have available and see which one he likes the most. He finally sees that this is a great idea, bad news...no my company corp owned stores in his area. But wait there is a Target... I tell him let me give you the number so you can call and make sure they have the phones you want to look at (he had narrowed it down to a couple based on my descriptions)

This is the part where I decided I'd rather take a spoon and dig my eye out than stay at work and talk to him. I give him the number to Target 856-623-2068...So it's 856-23-0286....no, no it's not. I repeat it 8.5.6....6.2.3....2.0.6.8, Ok I got 856-23- is the zero before or after the two......it's after....ok so 0268?.....*me starting to look like an insane person because my eyes are growing wide* No it's 2....0....6....8. Ok so is the zero before or after the two?....ARE YOU FUCKING WITH ME?!?!?! I'm not kidding I read the number off PAINFULLY slow. I gave him PLENTY of time between each number to write it down directly as I was speaking it.

Now before anyone posts nasty bitchy things to me. Yes I know that perhaps he was dyslexic I did think of that. However he claimed the acct was in his name and you have to be 18 to have an acct in your own name so there for by this time in his life you would HOPE he has at least had some kind of teaching that allows him some tricks as to how to live and cope with dyslexia if that is indeed his problem and not just years of inbreeding. I'm not kidding you I read that number well over 20 times to him. I said each number again with so much time in between so that he could just start fresh and write down the number as I said it and not have to worry about which was in front of what.

And after all that...after saying them so slow an arthritic grandmother who has alzheimers would memorize the number. He didn't get it right. I lied to him. I'm sorry it was awful of me but he just.didn't.get.it. He didn't there was nothing I was going to say that would help him figure out what the fuck the number was. He was simply an inbreed idiot from Alabama

What to do with the economic bailout

I'm not sure who wrote this I wish I was because I would love to credit them with it but I think it's absofukinglutly amazing I'll support this 100%!

I like the thinking of this... Why, I wonder would this NEVER go??? Big brother/Politicians?!?


I'm against the $85,000,000,000.00 bailout of AIG.

Instead, I'm in favor of giving $85,000,000,000 to America in
a 'We Deserve It Dividend'.

To make the math simple, let's assume there are 200,000,000
bona fide U.S. Citizens 18+.

Our population is about 301,000,000 +/- counting every man, woman
and child. So 200,000,000 might be a fair stab at adults 18 and up..

So divide 200 million adults 18+ into $85 Billion that equals $425,000.00.

My plan is to give $425,000 to every person 18+ as a
'We Deserve It Dividend'.

Of course, it would NOT be tax free.
So let's assume a tax rate of 30%.

Every individual 18+ has to pay $127,500.00 in taxes.
That sends $25,500,000,000 right back to Uncle Sam.

But it means that every adult 18+ has $297,500.00 in their pocket.
A husband and wife has $595,000.00.

What would you do with $297,500.00 to $595,000.00 in your family?
Pay off your mortgage - housing crisis solved.
Repay college loans - what a great boost to new grads entering the work force.
Put away money for college - it'll be there to assist education.
Save in a bank - create money to loan to entrepreneurs.
Buy a new car, buy anything - create jobs.
Invest in the market - capital drives growth
Pay for you or your parent's medical insurance - health care improves.
Enable Deadbeat Dads to come clean - or else.

Remember this is for every adult U S Citizen 18+ including the folks
who lost their jobs at Lehman Brothers and every other company
that is cutting back. And definitely, for those bravely serving in our Armed Forces.

So, if we're going to re-distribute wealth let's really do it...instead of trickling out
a puny $1000.00 ( 'buy your vote' ) economic incentive that is being proposed by one
of our candidates for President.

If we're going to do an $85 billion bailout, let's bail out every adult U S
Citizen 18+!

As for AIG - liquidate it.
Sell off its parts.
Let American General go back to being American General.
Sell off the real estate.
Let the private sector bargain hunters cut it up and clean it up.

Here's my rationale. We deserve it and AIG doesn't.

Sure it's a crazy idea that can 'never work.'

But can you imagine the Coast-To-Coast Block Party!

How do you spell Economic Boom?

I trust my fellow adult Americans to know how to use the '$85 Billion
We Deserve It Dividend' more than I do the geniuses at AIG or our politicians in Washington DC .

And remember, This plan really only costs $59.5 Billion because $25.5
Billion is returned instantly in taxes to Uncle Sam.


Ahhh...I feel So much better getting that off my chest.

PS: Feel free to pass this along to your pals as it's either good for a laugh,
a tear, or a very sobering thought on how to best use $85 Billion!!

sorry

Ok so I know I've been totally slack in writing anything on here but for the longest time I just didn't feel the draw to write. I've been in hiding in a way online. But here I is whether you like it or not.
So since I've last written I've started a new job and been there for 5.5 weeks now. I'm working customer service at an amazing company. One that gives amazing benefits for it's employees. I'm really actually enjoying myself and I've already made some new friends.
Not to terribly much going on in my life right now. I did get down to Texas saw some friends and family that I haven't seen in a while. I'm already itching to go back I miss them tons. One of my best friends is dating another of my really good friends and I'm happy for them. I hope it works out great.
I've met a few amazing women at my new job and have been enjoying going out with them usually once a week at least to hang out and relax. It's been nice.
My schedule does suck in that most of my other friends are on different schedules than me so I haven't seen them as much. And once my sched changes past training it's gonna get worse cause I'll be a mid shift and won't get off till 10 pm during the week so I'll pretty much not see my husband at all except on the weekends. But hopefully that only lasts till Feb when I can change my sched again.
I've been doing something secretly that I'm not gonna expand on here yet but I'm excited about and hopefully it will become known to others soon enough.
Ok I'm really tired now so I think I'm gonna go to bed.

Stolen from an e-mail

C O W S

Is it just me, or does anyone else find it amazing that during the mad cow epidemic our government could track a single cow, born in Canada almost three years ago, right to the stall where she slept in the state of Washington? And, they tracked her calves to their stalls. But they are unable to locate 11 million illegal aliens wandering around our country. Maybe we should give each of them a cow.



T H E C O N S T I T U T I O N

They keep talking about drafting a Constitution for Iraq .... Why don't we just give them ours? It was written by a lot of really smart guys, it has worked for over 200 years, and we're not using it anymore.



T H E 1 0 C O M M A N D M E N T S

The real reason that we can't have the Ten Commandments posted in a courthouse is this:
You cannot post 'Thou Shalt Not Steal,' 'Thou Shalt Not Commit Adultery,' and 'Thou Shall Not Lie' in a building full of lawyers, judges and politicians....It creates a hostile work environment.

Blog Tour Part IX

So I've been kinda slack in writing anything new here. For those of you who take the time to click on my little blog and look you haven't had anything new to read since the beginning of the month. Now I do realize that the month is only half over so you've gone approximately 9 day without anything new from me. So for you patient people...here is something new. You're welcome.

What are you planning on doing this summer/what are you most looking forward to doing?

That is the latest blog tour topic. And here is my response. I WANNA NEW JOB! :) And the good news is I may have one I really really like shortly however it won't start until July 15th. The better news (if I get the job) is that I have a temp job for the next 2 weeks which will keep me busy till right before I go to Texas to visit some friends and family I haven't seen in 2 years. And then when I get back on the 8th I'll have about a week of free time to unpack clean and put away my clothes before I start my new job. And knowing me it could very well take the full week to unpack, clean, and put away my clothes. :D

So what I am looking forward to most is a new job however I am also ecstatic about said trip to Texas. I get to go down on Thurs see my 4 nieces, 5 my great nephews and great nieces. My two sisters, possibly two brothers in law (depending on if one is one the road or not and what the others work sched is), and a partridge in a pear tree. Ok it's TX so probably no partridges but I could see pear trees if anyone has decided to plant them. I also get to see my mom and one of my closest childhood friends on Thursday night. Not to mention one of my bestest friends TC who has been so kind to offer to drive me around hither and thither while I'm down there as Alyssa (my SIL) is driving me as far as my sisters house before going to see her brother, SIL, niece, and newest family addition her nephew. Who at the time of publishing this has yet to be born. Then I get to see some friends from church and highschool on Friday stay with a friend Friday night. Do some of this and that on Saturday. Eat at all those places that they don't have where I live now. (come on, I'm a fatty of course my vacation is gonna include food.)
Generally it should be a great trip and I'm really really really looking forward to it.

bummer realizations

So I quit my job a couple of weeks ago. Looking for another one, had an interview didn't get it. But that's not what this post is about.
What it is about is that I am pretty sure I'll never see Fredrick again. Which is sad. I knew even at the time that I likely was hoping for more than would ever actually happen but what your brain says logically and your heart hopes for are quite often two different things.

I thought I would write more but this is all I want to write.

Blog Tour VIII Favorite Scent

Last weeks topic was our favorite scent and I didn't post, I didn't think I was going to post at all. I don't really have a favorite scent. I enjoy smelling things sure I enjoy flowers and fresh cut grass. I like the smell of yummy bread being baked. Or when Neri cooks something extra yummy in the oven. But I couldn't really think of a favorite scent. I was reading another one of the blog tour posts and was reminded of something that always makes me nostalgic and usually happy.
The smell of lumber. It reminds me of my father, specifically being with him on a job site when I was younger. He worked in construction. He had his own business he worked for others, he was the guy nailing all the 2x4s together, he was the job foremen. He did it all from the lowest of the low to the top. Now my dad didn't always live with my mom and I and they ended up splitting around the time I was in 3rd or 4th grade (I don't remember exactly.) I didn't always have good times with him or want to be with him or even liked him. But I always enjoyed being on a job with him. From the time I could walk pretty much I had been on job sites with him. I'd carry a hammer (both hands cause it was heavy) I'd hand him nails. I even got to sit on a stack of plywood that was on a forklift and be lifted up to the second floor once. I love it.
And so to this day if I'm near lumber fresh cut or open edges (so the scent isn't sealed in) I smell it and I think of my dad and I either cry because he's gone or I'm happy because I remember the times I enjoyed being with him as a child.
And that my friends is my favorite scent.

What I've done. (some of it anyway)

How Many Things Have You Lived Through?

I have read a lot of books.

I have been on some sort of varsity team.

I have run more than 2 miles without stopping.

I have been to Canada.

I have been to Europe.

I have watched cartoons for hours.

I have tripped UP the stairs.

I have fallen down an entire flight of stairs.

I have been snowboarding/skiing.

I have played ping pong.

I swam in the ocean.

I have been on a whale watch.

I have seen fireworks.

I have seen a shooting star.

I have seen a meteor shower.

I have almost drowned.

I have been so embarrassed I wanted to disappear.

I have listened to one CD over & over & over again.

I have had stitches.

I have had frostbite.

I have licked a frozen pole and got stuck there.

I have stayed up til 2 doing homework/projects.

I currently have a job.

I have been ice skating.

I have been rollerblading

I have fallen flat on my face.

I have tripped over my own two feet.

I have been in a fist fight.

I have played videogames for more than 3 hours straight.

I have watched the power rangers.

I attend Church regularly.

I have played truth or dare.

I have already had my 16th birthday.

I have already had my 17th birthday.

I've called someone stupid.

I've been in a verbal argument.

I've cried in school.

I've played basketball on a team.

I've played baseball on a team.

I've played football on a team.

I've played soccer on a team.

I've done cheerleading on a team.

I've played softball on a team.

I've played volleyball on a team.

I've played tennis on a team.

I've been on a track or cross country team.

I've been swimming more than 20 times in my life.

I've bungee jumped.

I've climbed a rock wall.

I've lost more than $20.

I've called myself an idiot.

I've called someone else an idiot.

I've cried myself to sleep.

I've had (or have) pets.

I've owned a spice girls CD.

I've owned a britney spears CD.

I've owned an N*Sync CD.

I've owned a backstreet boys CD.

I've mooned someone.

I have sworn at someone of authority before.

I've been in the newspaper.

I've been on TV.

I've been to Hawaii.

I've eaten sushi.

I've been on the other side of a waterfall.

I've watched all of the Lord of the Rings movies.

I've watched all the Harry Potter movies.

I've watched all of the Rocky movies.

I've watched the 3 stooges.

I've watched "Newlyweds" Nick & Jessica.

I've watched Looney Tunes.

I've been stuffed into a locker/I have stuffed others into lockers.

I've been called a geek.

I've studied hard for a test and got a bad grade.

I've not studied at all for a test and aced it.

I've hugged my mom within the past 24 hrs.

I've hugged my dad within the past 24 hours.

I've met a celebrity/music artist.

I've written poetry.

I've been arrested.

I've been attracted to someone much older than me.

I've been tickled till I've cried.

I've tickled someone else until they cried.

I've had/have siblings.

I've been to a rock concert.

I've listened to classical music and enjoyed it.

I've been in a play.

I've been picked last in gym class.

I've been picked first in gym class.

I've been picked in that middle-range in gym class.

I've cried in front of my friends.

I've read a book longer than 1,000 pages.

I've played Halo 2.

I've freaked out over a sports game.

I've been to Alaska.

I've been to China.

I've been to Spain.

I've been to Japan.

I've had a fight with someone on AIM.

I've had a fight with someone face-to-face.

I've had serious conversations using IM.

I've forgiven someone who has done something wrong to me.

I've been forgiven.

I've screamed at a scary movie.

I've cried at a chick flick.

I've watched a lot of action movies.

I've screamed at the top of my lungs.

I've been to a rap concert.

I've been to a hip hop concert.

I've lived in more than 2 houses.

I've driven on the highway/been on the highway.

I've driven more than 400 miles in a day/been in a car that went more than 400 miles in a day.

I've been in a car accident.

I've done drugs.

I've been homesick.

I've thrown up.

I've puked on someone.

I've been horseback riding.

I've filled out more than 10 myspace surveys.

I've spoken my mind in public.

I've proved someone wrong.

I've been proven wrong by someone.

I've broken a leg.

I've broken an arm.

I've fallen off a swing.

I've swung on a swing for more than 30 mins straight.

I've watched Winnie the Pooh movies.

I've forgotten my backpack when I've gone to school.

I've lost my backpack.

I've come close to dying.

I've seen someone die.

I've known someone who has died.

I've wanted to be an actor/actress at some point.

I've done modeling.

I've forgotten to brush my teeth some mornings.

I've taken something/someone for granted.

I've realized how good my life is.

I've counted my blessings.

I've made fun of a classmate.

I've been asked out by someone and I said no.

I've slapped someone in the face.

I've been skateboarding.

I've been backstabbed by someone I thought was a friend.

I've lied to someone to their face.

I've told a little white lie.

I've taken a day off from school just so I don't go insane.

I've fainted.

I've had an argument with someone about whether cheerleading is a sport or not.

I've pushed someone into a pool.

I've been pushed into a pool.

I've been/are in love.

Amatokin

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Why do we care?

Why do we care what others think of us? What is the purpose of it? It serves to make us feel bad or insecure or worried. Others judge us and it can do damage to our self esteem. If you are happy with you then be happy. Don't worry about what others think. Don't spend your life hiding who you really are because someone somewhere may not approve.

I'm not sure exactly who said this and I'm not exactly sure if it was worded this way. But the general idea I like.

The people that are worth it won't care and those that care aren't worth it.

The people in your life that choose to dislike you over something that is inherently you just aren't worth it. The people who choose to judge you and make assumptions of you because of rumors and hearsay aren't worth it. The people who are worth it are those that know you to the core and love and accept you for exactly who you are and actually KNOW who you are instead of thinking they know anything about you.

I have a lifestyle that not all understand or approve of. Some think that because I live this way I will attempt to steal someone away from their SO. It's just not the case no matter how much I care for someone I would never attempt to steal them. If they came willingly well that's another story. :D My dad cheated on my mom for a great many years and saw nothing wrong with it. He put my mom's health at risk and it's just not something I have the desire to do. I don't want to be the "other woman" to any man.

But regardless of what I say or how I say it some people will always assume that because of my lifestyle I'm a man stealer or want to be and you know what I just don't give a flying monkeys ass what they think. I did. But it's something I've had to start dealing with within myself. Why do I care what good is it for me to worry about what someone else thinks of me. They certainly aren't my friends so what does it matter? And in the end I realized it doesn't. So to those that think poorly of me and don't know me well kiss it because I am just not going to let it bother me anymore.

Thanks and have a great day!

My weekend

So I posted about no good deed and such. I'm feeling much better now. I still have an occasional back pain and will likely go to the chiro once I get a claim number from the insurance. I am supposed to go and get 2 quotes for my car repair. I was hoping it'd be like my accident where they gave me a list of places I could go and I wouldn't have to worry about the quote or anything like that but I guess it's not to be this time.

Saturday was Gehnen's b-day party. His b-day is actually Tomorrow (Tue) but we wanted to celebrate on the weekend to give us more time. We went to the park and BBQed some burgers and hotdogs. We also did some nerfing but not nearly as much as dear hubby would have liked. But I wasn't up to top form and my back was hurting me some at the time. We got there about 11 and are glad we did get there so early because the park and all the BBQ pits got full quite fast after we arrived. We ended up leaving just before 3 and enjoyed the day a great deal. Was absolutely perfect park weather.

Saturday night Alyssa and I went to a party for my co-workers b-day. Saturday was his actual birthday. Alyssa and I both ended up getting drunk. Neither of us had really had anything to drink since our SIL was out visiting in February and I think we've both become something of a light weight. And it wasn't any help that the very first drink we both had was a screw driver that was about half vodka and half OJ. The b-day boy was very generous. I also ended up fooling around a bit with one of the party guests. Good kisser that one. Alyssa had to assure another party guest that no my hubby would not be upset with me kissing another man which was actually nice to know that people out there are still concerned with fidelity.

Alyssa is quite a funny drunk. She was quite adamant about no one driving while drunk (which is a very good thing to be adamant about) but then she quite willingly got into the car of another guest (who was indeed drunk) so they could go to taco bell and obtain some food. Also after we left and I drove the 30 mins from where the party was to Alyssa's house she decided at that point that I was too drunk to drive and stole my keys from the ignition. My BIL Benny had to convince her that I was just fine to drive and that no Gehnen in fact would not be mad at her for letting me driving the rest of the way home.

Unfortunately the next day Alyssa had quite the hangover and has sworn off drinking...until we go to Vegas where she won't have much choice. ;)

Dream Job Blog Tour VII

So I completely miss a week and then I do that one and the current one back to back.

What is your dream job, and if you don't/didn't have it, how did that happen?

To be honest I had 3 dream jobs between first grade and my first year of college.

I knew without a shadow of a doubt that I wanted to be a teacher when I was in first grade. That is what I wanted to do. I'd have little craft kits and I'd set up my class room just so. I knew all this in 1st grade. I loved my teacher, she even went to my church so I ended up knowing her my entire school career (after a year of college I moved away and don't see her anymore). Said year in college was actually starting on my education degree. However shortly after taking some classes I realized it just wasn't for me and that I was out of my mind to think I'd make a good teacher. One of my best friends TC is a great teacher but she and I have near polar opposite personalities and mine just isn't the right one for teaching.

In 3rd grade I fell in love with marine biology. I loved (and do to this day) marine life. It amazes me. In fact I did a report on I think about 20 different marine animals completely voluntary. My teacher ended up grading it and even averaged that into my grade for the period I think. I was fascinated by it all. But the nitty gritty details I just didn't have the mind for.

My final dream job was to be a fashion designer. Oh goddess I love designing clothes however I do not have the skills needed for fashion design you know that little small skill known as drawing. It escapes my grasp. That and fashion is so hard to break into.

So what "dream job" do I want at this point in my life? I'd like to be an office manager some day. I think it'd be a good fit for me. I'm fair with co-workers and I'm good and keeping people flowing and on target I think without being an utter bitch about it all.

Bucket List Blog Tour part VI

Well the topic due last Sat was my very own topic and yet I didn't post it in time. Shame on me I guess. I posted a couple of times this just wasn't what I was in the mood to post on sorry guys.

So what do I want to do before my time on this round place ends?

I want to visit every US state.
I want to go overseas at least once: London, Paris, Australia, Italy, almost anywhere. :)
I want to lose weight and be a size 12
I want to make enough money to not worry about my monthly bills
I want to be able to go into a bookstore and buy 10 books without thinking about how this will hit my bank account.
I want to go on a vacation with my husband
I want to have kids
I want to go rock climbing on real rocks and not just indoors.
I want to meet Johnny Depp (so that might not happen but it'd sure be nice.)
I want to spend a day at the spa getting pampered
I want to finish the cross stitch I've been working on for 2 years so far. *smiles sheepishly*
I want to go back to Mt Shasta and spend a week or two camping there and climb up as far as I can on Mt. Shasta.

I'm sure there are plenty more but that's it for this list.

Real Live vs. Politics

No good deed goes unpunished

So I was going to pickup lunch for my boss because I have the freedom to leave before the lunch rush starts around here and he only has a 30 min lunch break. On the way to grab it I saw Fredrick walking home. He had been sent home because he was sick. So I offered to give him a ride home which he took me up on.

After I dropped him off I was on my way back to the office when the car in front of me slowed down because the car in front of him was turning. The truck behind me was going too fast or just didn't notice I had slowed down. Either way I glance up into my rear view mirror and see the look of terror on his face as he realizes he's going to hit me. And he hits me hard.

Bent my bumper and my license plate. And my truck is probably about a quarter of an inch higher than it should be. I was feeling fine at first and then started to get a headache while waiting for the police. They had to be called because he was in a company pickup truck and they have to have a police report filed.

So that took an hour or so for the cop to show up and do all his paperwork. So the accident happened around 11:30 and now 2ish hours later my back is really starting to hurt. My headache hasn't gone away despite the fact that I took 2 Excedrin as soon as I got back into the office. So as soon as I leave work it's off to Urgent care I go.

And so you see...no good deed goes unpunished.

Another rant.

On a forum I read someone posted about their child being in a school play and about the costume that all the little girls wore and how she, the mother, disagreed with the costume. It was your typical dance outfit a leotard and tights. The mom had a problem with the fact that they were nude tights and a black leotard. Now this is typical of nearly any dance studio that you could sign your kids up for.

This mom in particular was very unhappy at seeing her kid in this outfit (she didn't see it until her daughter was on stage at the performance). I'm sorry but I honestly just do not see the problem. Now many may disagree with me. But I think as a nation we can censor our kids and what they see too much.

What is so wrong with a child in a leotard and tights. She was upset particularly because they were nude tights and not black or something. But that costume usually hides all the necessary bits. I don't think I've ever seen a child look scandalous in that kind of a costume. And she wasn't even a solo act she was dancing with a number of other kids all in the same costume. Now some might say that "oh noes but a child molester might have seen them" I'm sorry but someone looking for kiddies is going to find something to get their kicks off to no matter WHAT the kid is wearing. They could be in jeans and a long sleeve shirt (or a floor length skirt for those that feel pants are more provocative) and some sick fuck into kids could still think horrid things about them.

We have gotten to an age (as a country) where we are far to paranoid that the worst is going to happen. (no the woman who put up the post that got me on my kick didn't suggest anything other than she thought it indecent I'm just ranting) I am sick and tired of it. I'm sorry but kids wearing dance outfits aren't going to become sluts or automatically going to signal some sicko somewhere to track them down. Nor are kids playing video games going to automatically go out with a gun because when they die there is another life to bring them back.

We need to parent our children but not encase them in bubbles that shatter upon their entry into the adult world. We need to help them make good decisions not take away the option to make any. We need to calm down and realize that while bad things do happen and you can protect yourself and your family unless you move to the wilderness and go back a few decades there is always the chance that something will happen.

We are raising a generation of children with two extremes and neither is good. To either protect them so much (like I could see happening in the case of the mother and daughter mentioned above) or to not parent them at all. We need to find a compromise and we need to change our way of thinking as a nation. It's not good to be so damned paranoid.


Also...I like what this person said.

Reliving Highschool?

The Demon keeps saying I'm reliving high school with all the drama that I have going on. Only thing is I never had this much drama while I was in high school. So she says that I'm making up for it. But the thing is I'd really rather not. It's not like the drama is fun. Some of the things that CAUSE the drama are, I'll admit, fun but the drama itself not so much. The craziness going on in my head where I know what I think/feel/want is wrong but my heart doesn't seem to want to pay attention.

Fredrick has recently admitted to me that he cares a great deal for me. Yes yes I know he's still with his bitch of a girl. And yes I know I should put a screeching halt to this on both his side and mine and yet I don't. Why not? Because a part of me hopes that he will realize just how bad the bitch is for him and he'll leave her. And if he does I'll get to date him. I realize this is a completely selfish thing to want. So I guess that's where the high school part comes in. I like a guy who's with another girl and he likes me back and right now it's going no where.

I know that many people won't like or understand this part of my life. But I don't want to go into all the details. I'm starting to get used to people placing judgment on me for how my husband and I chose to live our lives. Again for anyone who is worried I have no desire to steal anyone away from someone they care about. I'm just waiting for it to happen so I can get what I so selfishly want.

Blog Tour part V

So I've missed a couple or three topics for the Blog tour but I'm back. Did ya miss me? :)
This week is a simple one, what do I plan to do for my "summer vacation?" Well I don't really get a summer vacation cause I work all summer long but I do have travel plans so I'll share those. I'm going to go back to TX to visit friends and family I haven't seen since Benny and Alyssa got married in '06. That should be tons of fun. I'm really looking forward to it. Not the drive though so I'm trying to talk a couple of friends into going with me so we can share the driving time. Alyssa might come because her nephew is due around then and then my Demon w/ Boobs might come just because.

Either way I'm hoping someone does or I'm gonna be one tired puppy when I finally make it down there. It's a 10-12 hour drive depending on how fast I go and which way I go and traffic which might not be all that great considering I'm going home for the 4th of July weekend. Oh joy to me.

Then in October (which I know isn't tech summer but you get to hear about it anyway) my husband's school (in Cali) is having a reunion and wants to go and I really want to go with him but we'll have to check finances because later in the month I'm already planning on going to Vegas for TC's b-day celebration. Which should be a total blast. TC, Alyssa, and I are really looking forward to it. The last time the 3 of us went on a vacation together was in '00 when we went to Cali to meet Gehnen and Benny for the first time ever. Now we've done things together since but no actual vacations. So really looking forward to that.

And those are all my plans at least for the moment. Though I am sure we'll end up at the park a few days to BBQ or to play Nerf. And in May we are having Gehnen's b-day in the park with BBQ AND Nerf by special request. Which reminds me I need to let some people know the date.

Blog Tour IV

So when did I become a woman? Not by age but by mind and feeling. I'd say I was a late bloomer in that aspect. I felt like a kid just pretending for quite a while. You would think that moving to a state half way across the country at 20 would do it. Or moving into an apartment with Alyssa at 22 (23?) would do it. But honestly I just didn't feel grown up then. I didn't feel like a woman.

Then Gehnen and I decided to move half way across the country together. So not only was I moving but I was moving with my future husband. And then we bought a house and then we got married.

I think for me it would have to have been when we walked into our house after signing a million and a half pieces of paper that it really hit me...OMG I'm a grown up. I am a woman. Yes I'd done plenty of things that women do before then. I had been *whispers* intimate, with my hubby. I had moved across many states twice ending up in one where I only knew 4 adults and 2 kids and 2 of the adults had moved with me. I had paid my own bills I had purchased a car but none of that really made me feel like a woman. For me it was the house. That was what sealed the deal.

Now that's not to say I'm completely grown up. Not by a long shot and that's ok. I like being a kid in some aspects. I play video games and read young adult and even children's books that are well written. I have, as one of my best friends says, the drama of a high schooler going on right now which I'm not going to go into details on. So while I'm a woman I'm still very much a kid too. And I like that about myself so it's all good. :)

My Hell

Rednecks
Circle I Limbo

Republicans
Circle II Whirling in a Dark & Stormy Wind

General asshats
Circle III Mud, Rain, Cold, Hail & Snow

Militant Vegans
Circle IV Rolling Weights

PETA Members
Circle V Stuck in Mud, Mangled

River Styx

Parents who bring squalling brats to R-rated movies
Circle VI Buried for Eternity

River Phlegyas

Scientologists
Circle VII Burning Sands

George Bush
Circle IIX Immersed in Excrement

Saddam Hussein
Circle IX Frozen in Ice

Design your own hell

So there is this guy...

There is this guy that I like quite a bit. (who whenever mentioned from here on out will be Fredrick) He's sweet and caring. He makes me laugh. He listens when I need to vent and has even seen me cry though I've tried to hide it from him. I get excited simply by him touching my elbow to get my attention. I can get lost in his eyes at times. He's a good friend and I wish there could be more. The only problem is he has a psychotic bitch of a girl.

This girl is insanely jealous and would never consent to sharing him with me. Even though I have no desire to steal him from her. And while I realize that my lifestyle isn't for everyone this woman won't even let him have female friends. And before anyone thinks I'm a hussy I am not the type of woman to steal a guy from someone he's committed to. He really does deserve better than her.

It's hard to have feelings for someone you can't be with. And it's hard when you didn't even set out to have feelings for them. You were just friends and the more you talked the more you found you liked each other and the more it sucked that you couldn't be with the other. I know I need to stop having feelings for this guy but I don't want to stop being his friend and the more I get to know him the more I like him.

The worst part about all of this is again the girl. He would be completely fine being the "other" man. He knows I'm married and plan to stay that way. He knows he'd have to share me with my husband and he's cool with that. It's hard to find a guy willing to be that person in a relationship. And here I find one, and a nice sweet one at that, and he's taken...by a CRAZY woman. Goddess I just wish they'd split up already. Hell even if he and I were never anything more than friends he needs to leave her.



I realize this is mostly just rambling but it's easier and quicker for me to type than write so this is kinda like a journal entry for me that I tried to write so that it could make some kind of sense to anyone else reading it.

My personality...

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How to treat a woman

Looking up

I've been in a good mood pretty much all week. There have been a couple of eh moments to be sure but nothing really and truly depressing. I'm so happy for that! I've felt relaxed and comfortable. It's a nice feeling and I didn't realize just how down I had been feeling and how much my stress was piling up on me. I knew I was having bad moments and depressed days but I didn't realize how much it was effecting me, even when I thought I was in a good mood those bad thoughts were still niggling in my brain. I hope that this continues. That what changed continues to change and continues to work.

I've really kept up with this whole blogging thing a lot more than I ever have before. With this post I will have surpassed the most amount of posts in one year. In '05 which was the year I blogged the most I had 29 posts all year. So far in '08 (all 3.5 months of it) I'll have 30 posts. Not bad considering. I was hoping to write daily and I haven't done that but I have been writing more. Now I just need to get off my ass and work on the creative blog post that I have due a week from Sat. That one I'm nervous about. I enjoy writing but I'm afraid that people won't think it's good enough. And yet at the same time I know I can't get better without just writing and getting peoples opinions.

Daily Photo 3

Now I realize what you think you see but I promise you it is not the case. What you think you see is a lake. What you actually are looking at is a sink hole filled with about a day and a half of rain. It will be gone soon. Isn't that amazing?

Spring has sprung I had to do 2 photos today because this was just so pretty all in bloom and such.

Daily Photo 2

So I didn't take a picture at all on Tuesday but here is one from yesterday. I was hardly on yesterday so I didn't post. What you are looking at is a gaggle of turkey outside my office. We are at the end of a street and at the end of that street is a forest where we have wild turkey and deer. I saw a doe last year but haven't seen a buck yet though some of my co-workers said they have seen them.

Daily Photo 1

Ok I lied here is my first picture. That's my baby girl Lacey laying on my bed with my freshly washed sheets behind her but not yet put properly on the bed because I like to procrastinate and likely won't do them until bedtime. She's gotten so big :( I can hardly remember when she was a little puppy outside of some pictures I have of her.
Lacey as a month old puppy

Walking

Today started off not all that great but you know what it's ending pretty alright. Maybe not the best day in the world but today I have hope. Hope that things will work out, and in the way I want them to no less. I figure that no matter what happens it's what's supposed to happen. Good or bad in your eyes that's the way it was meant to be. Well today I have hope that it will end good instead of bad. That I'll be happy with the outcome and not have to wait to realize that the "bad" in the long run was the right thing to happen. I got moonie eyed today. Many of you may not know what that means but it's ok, just trust me that it's a good thing, it's a start.

I went walking today. Did aprox 3/4 of a mile in 25 min. Not great I know but hey it's a start right? Lacey is getting better on the leash as well. She still pulls a bit here and there but the majority of the time walking she does pretty good. I only had to do a pull start on her about 3 times this time around.

Also something to expect. Starting tomorrow I plan to post at least one picture a day of something in my life. The weather, family, a book, just something. My life via photos. I'll take a few of what ever strikes my fancy and post it up for ya'll to love and enjoy. (ok so maybe that's wishful thinking but I'll post them anyway.)

BTW - I love Gehnen.

In loving memory

We miss you Krista. You were taken far too soon from this world.
04/04/05

Blog Tour part 3 Phobias/worst hotel stay

I'm gonna write about 2 things this time around. And Alyssa forgive me but one of them will be the cabin from your wedding.

First my phobia, honestly there isn't really anything I'm uber afraid of. I could talk about Gehnen's fear of roller coasters (which he tried to defeat but didn't) but that isn't my phobia, hell it's not even Amanda's (some of you should get that reference. :D ). So anyway the thing I do have a fear of, dying painfully. I'm a wuss I know this. I don't like pain I don't want to deal with much pain (and yet I'm determined to give birth with no epidural when I have kids). The idea that I'll die painfully is just really really scary for me. I don't want to be killed or suffer from a long illness. Gives me the shivers.

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As to my worst hotel stay. It actually wasn't that bad over all but since most of the places I've stayed were pretty good this was the only one to really write about. When my SIL got married she had us girls stay in a cabin in the park where she was getting married so that we could get to the place easily and stay together and spend some time bonding (or something I don't know how much more we could have bonded after all the 3 of us have known each other for oh over 10 years already at that point.)

So we get to the cabin after a long day and what do we discover on the floor but a nearly dead scorpion yes that's right nearly dead. It was still moving slightly. We put it out of the rest of its misery by thwacking it with a broom. Then we were all afraid to touch it. Was quite the ordeal. I was freaked out because I was afraid that another much more alive one would come into the room and since I've never been stung by one I have no idea how I would react and I figured finding out the day before my best friend and brother in law got married would be a poor choice.

So I pretty much bounced from surface to surface keeping my feet off the floor as much as possible. And you know I think I did a good job of hiding it from the Bride to be so she wouldn't know how squicked out I was by the dead scorpion on the floor (did I Alyssa?) Then the next day I was back in the hotel room that my hubby and I had and didn't have to deal with possible scorpions on our floor. whee!!

Crotch Inspections?!?!

The article that sparked this rant

What the every livin fuck is wrong with these people?!?! Who in their right mind would STRIP search a THIRTEEN year old girl?! I don't care male or female what happen here is just flat out ridiculous. A school vice-principal decided that because a student (who had herself been caught with the horrible drugs! you know ibuprofen *gasps*) pointed her finger at another girl as the source of said "drugs" that girl should be strip searched to find more drugs.

This girl was an honor student with no record and yet, after she willing subjected her backpack to be searched (where nothing was found,) was forced to pull her undergarments away from her body to see if any drugs would fall out. She wasn't even allowed to call her mother. Who the hell things these actions were the best course they could take?! They aren't even denying it. They aren't accusing the girl of embellishing they simply just think they are in the right to ask some young girl in the presence of 2 women to strip to her undies and then pull them away from her body.

And get this, and I'm sorry but I am disgusted by this, 2 judges on the U.S. Courst of Appeals found no fault with this.

This whole thing disgusts me. The people who started this and then found no fault with it are morons. I would do anything I could to get the principals of this school out of their positions. They just have no right to be enforcing or requesting these measures.

Going forward

Things I'm looking forward to doing this year.

--I want to buy a bike and go biking around during the spring/summer/fall (ie when it's not so cold I freeze my ass off)
--I plan to go to Texas for the 4th of July. I haven't seen my friends/family down there since Benny and Alyssa got married in Sept '06.
--I plan to go to Vegas with my some of my best friends for one of said friends 30th b-day. I'm looking forward to that a lot.
--I plan to lose 50ish pounds before the year ends
--I want to go camping in a place that has nice hiking trails.
--I want to go tubing or something similar this summer (Benny and Alyssa did it and made it sound like tons of fun)
--I plan to go to the Art Walk down town at least once.
--I'm looking forward to seeing my Sisters-in-law and Father-in-law when they come visit from Cali this summer sometime.
--I'm looking forward to my mom visiting this spring.
--I'm hoping that one of my best friends can visit sometime this spring but realize she might not be able to since we are going to Vegas.
--I'm looking forward to being happier with my life in general.
--I'd like to watch some of the movies on the top 100 list that I have (you can see a copy that was posted sometime in '06 I think)
--I want to go to the park more often this spring/summer than we did last year because we all enjoyed it but then didn't go as much.
--I plan to go walking with my dog more often as the weather improves.

Right now I'm looking outside my window at work enjoying the sun and wanting to be outside. That is what lead to this post for the most part because I want to do a lot of things outside. Hopefully that will happen. We shall see. And perhaps I'll even post some pictures.

Lots of funnies lately.

I promise to write real posts too but I've been getting a lot of funnies from friends and family that I just feel the desire to share so here is another one. I swear that my next post will be real. I make no claims as to what will happen after that one though. And so without further adieu...a funny


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This is an actual letter from an Austin woman sent to American company
Proctor and Gamble regarding their feminine products. She really gets
rolling after the first paragraph. It's PC Magazine's 2007 editors'
choice for best webmail-award-winning letter.

Dear Mr. Thatcher,

I have been a loyal user of your 'Always' maxi pads for over 20 years
and I appreciate many of their features. Why, without the LeakGuard Core
or Dri-Weave absorbency, I'd probably never go horseback riding or
salsa dancing, and I'd certainly steer clear of running up and down the
beach in tight, white shorts. But my favorite feature has to be your
revolutionary Flexi-Wings. Kudos on being the only company smart enough to
realize how crucial it is that maxi pads be aerodynamic. I can't tell
you how safe and secure I feel each month knowing there's a little F-16
in my pants.

Have you ever had a menstrual period, Mr. Thatcher? Ever suffered from
the curse'? I'm guessing you haven't. Well, my time of the month is
starting right now. As I type, I can already feel hormonal forces
violently surging through my body. Just a few minutes from now, my body will
adjust and I'll be transformed into what my husband likes to call 'an
inbred hillbilly with knife skills.' Isn't the human body amazing?

As Brand Manager in the Feminine-Hygiene Division, you've no doubt seen
quite a bit of research on what exactly happens during your customers
monthly visits from 'Aunt Flo'. Therefore, you must know about the
bloating, puffiness, and cramping we endure, and about our intense mood
swings, crying, jags, and out-of-control behaviour. You surely realize
it's a tough time for most women. In fact, only last week, my friend
Jennifer fought the violent urge to shove her boyfriend's testicles into a
George Foreman Grill just because he told her he thought Grey's Anatomy
was written by drunken chimps. Crazy!

The point is, sir, you of all people must realize that America is just
crawling with homicidal maniacs in Capri pants... Which brings me to
the reason for my letter. Last month, while in the throes of cramping so
painful I wanted to reach inside my body and yank out my uterus, I
opened an Always maxi-pad, and there, printed on the adhesive backing, were
these words: 'Have a Happy Period.'

Are you fu*ing kidding me? What I mean is, does any part of your tiny
middle-manager brain really think happiness - actual smiling, laughing
happiness is possible during a menstrual period? Did anything mentioned
above sound the least bit pleasurable? Well, did it, James? FYI,
unless you're some kind of sick S&M freak girl, there will never be anything
'happy' about a day in which you have to jack yourself up on Motrin
and Kahlua and lock yourself in your house just so you don't march down
to the local CVS armed with a hunting rifle and a sketchy plan to end
your life in a blaze of glory.

For the love of God, pull your head out, man! If you just have to slap
a moronic message on a maxi pad, wouldn't it make more sense to say
something that's actually pertinent, like 'Put down the Hammer' or
'Vehicular Manslaughter is Wrong', or are you just picking on us?

Sir, please inform your Accounting Department that, effective
immediately, there will be an $8 drop in monthly profits, for I have chosen to
take my maxi-pad business elsewhere. And though I will certainly miss
your Flex-Wings, I will not for one minute miss your brand of
condescending bull sh*t. And that's a promise I will keep. Always.

Best,
Wendi Aarons
Austin , TX

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haha funny from G33Klite.com

1. When I was born, I got a choice - A big dick or a good memory. I can't remember what I chose.

2. Your birth certificate is an apology letter from the condom factory.

3. A wife is a sex object. Every time you ask for sex, she objects.

4. Impotence: Nature's way of saying 'No hard feelings...'

5. There are only two four letter words that are offensive to men - 'don't' and 'stop', unless they are used together.

6. Panties: Not the best thing on earth, but next to the best thing on earth.

7. There are three stages of sex in a man's life: Tri Weekly, Try Weekly, and Try Weakly.

8. Virginity can be cured.

9. Virginity is not dignity, it's lack of opportunity.

10. Having sex is like playing bridge. If you don't have a good partner, you'd better have a good hand.

11. I tried phone sex once, but the holes in the dialer were too small.

12. Marriage is the only war where you get to sleep with the enemy.

13. Q: What's an Australian kiss? A: The same thing as a French kiss, only down under.

14. A couple just married were happy with the whole thing. He was happy with the Hole and she was happy with the Thing.......

15. Q: What are the three biggest tragedies in a mans life? A: Life sucks, job sucks, and the wife doesn't.

16. Q: Why do men find it difficult to make eye contact ? A: Breasts don't have eyes.

17. Despite the old saying, 'Don't take your troubles to bed', many men still sleep with their wives !!!